honey  that sound really hard *safe hugs*

it sounds like you yourself are under an immense amount of stress too. try and remember that it is NOT YOUR FAULT  

it may not seem it but you have a right to step back if it is too much for you. have you told any other adults who you feel you can trust?

any luck with Alateen? what about the young carers project could they help in any way?

just try and keep yourself safe if possible and try very hard not to take it in what Sarah is saying to you when she blames you. It is not true and very unfair. She is an adult and should be in control of the situation.

We are all here for you hun

take care xxx