Hey

Okay so recently lots of us have lost loved ones for whatever reasons, And i know that some people feel like they didnt feel like they got to say goodbye properly or that they feel resposible for it in some way.

So i thought maybe we could write something that we wished we could of said or just something that we want about them or just memories

 Laura :) - I love you so much I never stop thinking about you. Im really sorry for everything, I should have been there for you and i wasnt Im so sorry for all the things i said, I hope you know i didnt mean them. Im so sorry for all the memories that should have been made that wernt Your happy now right? Your not in pain anymore? Your with your mum thats what you wanted, right? Well thats what i keep being told anyways. Dancings never going to be the same without you noone will ever compare to you, You were my first dancing teacher, But you were way more than a dancing teacher you were always there for me no matter what, Im just sorry i wasnt there when you needed me .I love you soo much smelly  Il be with you soon i promise Love you always, The brat !  oxox - Thats what i left up at her grave too

Michael :) - You were an amazing friend always there when i needed you Il never forget the time u stood up in school for me cause some girl was annoying me, Or the times when you wrote me notes to get out of Pe  You would of done anything for anyone I found out youd been attacked from the news and newspapers - U always did like to make yourself known lol. School was so hard without you, the first day back to school was awful everyone was crying and classes were cancelled .. we had special counsellors in and we also had a special assembly for you, I know you hated assemblys but you got your own .. Your murderers were finally sent to jail But what they done will never make it okay, everyday is so hard without you, You didnt deserve to die you has so much to offer the world .. The whole town was in total shock about your death... even people from "the other side" of town were distraught, but you did one thing you said you always wanted to do .. You wanted catholics and protestants to come together and stop fighting, You done it but you had to die to do   ... You have no idea how many people were affected by your death over 1000 people turned up to your funneral - I didnt even know that many people lived here lol. They say the best die young, and i guess God needed a new angel and he choose you. ilu sooo much  oxox

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This is such a beautiful idea (:

Grandad I'm really sorry i didn't make more effort to come round and see you, and im sorry i didnt have the strength to visit you in hospital. We knew you wanted to be out of pain but it didnt make things any easier. I know you wanted me to do well in my gcse's and i did :) You were ill for a long time and i hope your enjoying yourself now your pain free. Love you lots :) xxx

Kai-You were far to young to have left us, but the time yu spent with us you made the absolute most of. Im sorry we didn't see you more often but we know you were a busy bee! You were a very special little boy and we all miss you lots and lots. I hope that youve got plenty of insturments up there with you- we knw how much you like to make some noise :) We all love you lots and lots and we'll never forget you.xxx

 

I am gonna do my brother and although this is for dead people who you never could have said certain things to, I can say what I like to my brother but he wont ever understand

Sam You are two years older than me...I have  always had you and you seem normal to me, but I know you have so many disabilities and illnesses which I cant pronounce...I talk to you but you are like an empty shell, you can't understand... You can't also understand how much we care for you. You may never be able to appreciate it but we worry about how well you are... My dad always talks to you, I used to dislike it and think to myself "ugh he cant understand shut up dad" but about two months ago, when you were in hospital, I had a scary realization that even though you are a person just like me you can never enjoy all the things I take for granted like being able to think in English, because of some chromosone problem...you are condemmed to be looked at by various doctors and nurses...your life will never be great...but we are hhere to make it as good as it can be 

I love you Sam :) 

Dannie this really made me smile reading this...

Auntie Sheliah-  You were the best auntie ever Sheliah. You were always there for me and I was always there for you. I missed half of school in year R,1 and 2. Because we had to come up to London, as you were poorly.  Everytime we came to yours, we used to go shopping. You made me laugh,it was me who chose dinner most nights. But i guess you got bored of making KFC.  By the end of year 2,you was very poorly, and had to go into hospital. We came and saw you though. It only seems yesterday we was out shopping together and having a laugh, but its been 8 years...I wanted to say how much I loved you because I dsont think you realise how much I did love you. I miss and love you xxxxx

Chris- Chris I have known you ever since I was little, you was like a uncle to me. You came into Nan's cafe everyday. You sat in the corner most of the day drinking your coffee, reading your book, Chatting to us. Everytime I used to come home from school with homework, you would sit there and help me through it, even though you didnt like children. When there was a fight in te cafe, you sat there like nothing happened, but you always stuck up for people. You really did make me laugh. I miss you chris.. Love You xxxxxx

Uncle Terry- Terry, You made me laugh so much,  you sat in the kitchen most of the time listening to music. You did like a bit of the old sherry too. You said you was a vegi, but ate sauages, bacon, turkey and chicken. When you had bad legs, you told us aliens taken over your body. When you was very poorly, you told mum to stop breathing on you when you wouldnt let go of her. I miss you terry soo much.. Love you lots and lots

Grandad- Grandad you were my world, I love you soo much and i never got to tell you how much I loved you.  And I will always feel guilty for not going up on that thursday to see you. Its only  been 6weeks since you was taken from us. But them 6 weeks have been so hard. I duno how much more my body can take. I miss our chats, and me winding you up with the lights. I stay at nans every tuesday while John and JJ, go to darts. But I miss sitting there cuddling up to you watching CSI. The days we used to go to the cinema. I miss our chats, I miss our hugs, But most of all I miss you. Life isnt the same with out oyu no more. My heads just so baffled, what do I do any more...You wasnt just a Grandad to me you was my dad, and when I was little i called you Grandad-dad..Love you so much and I wish you realied how much I love you...xxxxxxxxxx

Granda :) - I dont have very many memories of you, but the ones i do have are enough to make me reliase what an awsome person you were and how lucky i am to say that you are my granda. I remember starying at urs and grannys one weekend and we went shopping and you had a massive tantrum in a shop cause granny wouldnt let u buy chocolate lol ... Like honestly u were such a big kid stamping ur feet and telling granny how unfair she was being .. Then trying to get me and Mel to get the choclate instead, Granny saw through all your tricks :L. I remember one time when the ambulance had to come and u had to get this injection on your finger, You had me, Ashley and Mel sitting round you and you pretending we were getting the injection too and u put red sauce on our hands The ambulance people musta thought u were mad cause you never stopped telling the stories about ur life or telling joke .. even though they sucked.. they were funny just cause it was coming from you. The times when i stayed at yours when i was sleepin in the pink room you would come in and hide with me cause u didnt want to do housework lol, You were soooo lazy, and stubborn ... If u didnt get your own way that was it u refused to eat or talk until you did lol or you would just eat bread and jam cause u couldnt cook .... Im sorry that at ur funneral me and my cousins talked the whole way through it, We didnt know what was going on really ... and im sorry i was too scared to kiss you goodbye, but it didnt look like you in that coffin Id do anything just to hear your voice or another story of urs My family are always telling stories about you know, your well know for your tantrums :L .... ilu oxox

Juliana :) - Omg i miss you sooo much You have no idea how much me and ur family miss you. We didnt have enough time with you, and il never understand why you had to die ... All your wee  nursery friends planted a wee memorial in the playground and had pink ballons and pink fairy dust to remember you by ... Cause we all no u were a wee princess in the making. You didnt have a long life but you had a fantastic time on this planet while u were herem u made everyone so happy, That infectious smile of urs or ur wee laugh was enough to make everything okay. Im sooo happy you got to meet ur baby sister and im sure when shes all grown up she will hear all about the fantastic stuff about you. Even tho i hated it when u used to steal my friends from me to show them a dance u learned or just to act silly infornt of them .. id do anything to make that happen one last time. ilu sooo much Juliana xoxo

Pearse  - Well i know i never really got to meet u,but i do know that use would of been the coolest brother in the universe, and Pearse even tho ur not alive i do feel like i am missing something cause i guess i needed you in some way ... How come i survied and you didnt .. Im sure mum wont of gone insane with us, Anyways Ciara had twins so i guess the twin powers live on ... Strangly enough she had biy & girl twins, Just like what we would of been. U were just too cool for this world oxox

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Awwww Dannie, There soooo Sweet, My Friends From Northan Irland And Called Ciara, xxxx

This is probably going to be long and emotional and ick but this is a great thread :)

 

Owain

I wish I'd been able to spend more time with you. I wish you'd been able to grow like Euan and Natasha have, that I'd been able to teach you all the things I taught them - just little things, like how to play all their favourite games on the playstation. I wish I'd been able to play dress-up with you, like I did with Euan - dressing him up in dresses and high heels and make-up. I wish I'd been able to see you start primary school, and then I could be there for you and stand up for you every day. I wish you'd been here, in September 2009, when you would have started secondary school with the sisters of two of my best friends.

I wish I could have protected you from everything that tried to harm you, and I wish I'd had the chance to be the best big sister I could ever be for you. I never got to hold you, but I saw you lots, and although I don't have the memories, all I have to do is flick through the photo album or your memory box, or ask Mum and Dad, and I'm there with you, and you're here with me.

 I wish I had more memories of you, so that I could look back on times we shared and realize just how good they were. I want to write and act and do everything I've ever wanted to do in the future, so that I can look back on my life and know that I did it all for you, because you are my inspiration in every way - I want to have the best life ever, so that I know that when you're watching over me, my guardian angel, you're smiling and you're seeing me enjoy myself. 

 I'd give anything to have you here, happy and healthy. I'd give anything to hold you, to hug you, to tease you and mess around with you, to gang up on the little ones with you, to talk about school and teachers with you. Even though I can't have you back, I hope you know that I still want to be a big sister to you. I still want to live my life for you as well as for me, and I want you to know that you keep me going on my worst days - all I have to do is think of you, and I realize that you're not ready for me yet, that I need to stay and be with our family. Above all, I hope you're proud of me, and I hope that I've done everything a good big sister should for you.